Why posts have slowed down

Well, life is moving on. I had a nice weekend - my neighbors got together and had a dinner in memory of Mom. There were seven of us total and it was really very nice. They lit a candle in the center of the table in memory of Mom. It brought a tear to my eyes. We all held hands to say grace and by then I was really tearing up! Dinner was great - homemade potato salad which Mom would have loved! Baked ham and chicken, beans and side veges of brussel sprouts and a dish of green beans and carrots. For desert, home baked apple pie with vanilla bean ice cream. All around a dinner that was delicious and very good company. We talked lots about Mom and her last days. It felt like the start of the healing process for me personally.
I have had a recurring dream for the last five nights and decided to investigate what it is all about. I am walking with Patti and Christine climbing up a hill in a city. Not sure what city, but we get to a church with a carved, wooden door. The church appears to be old and all the pews inside are carved in the most beautiful design. The alter has a huge stained glass window. And what's really funny is there is a big video screen instead of the altar and the minister is sitting up front watching the video. I am fuzzy on what is on the screen but he doesn't even see us when we walk in. So I looked up a dream interpretation in my favorite dream site and it is usually spot on when I look up my dreams.

• To dream that you are inside a church suggests that you are seeking for spiritual enlightenment and guidance. You are looking to be uplifted in some way. .... the dream may also mean that you are questioning and debating your life path and where it is leading. You are reevaluating what you want to do.

Now that is amazing! I am essentially in that spot in life! Looking to be uplifted, evaluating what I want to do next, re-inventing myself, creating a life I want for the next chapter. Things feel a little empty right now with an empty house with no Mom, no hubby, no kids. But I won't stay on my pity pot about it. I am running (or attempting to!!) and the exercise is good. Hoping to participate in a 10k with Kelly this spring.

I will figure things out and life will fill up again. Right now I am allowing the quiet to permeate my soul. I'm in the office now more and more - today because I was sort of forced into it when I woke to no internet service. I'll figure out what to do next and I'll blog about it. Get ready for some visits! I have lots of vacation days and really hoping this June will be our first annual family get together.