Cleaning out Mom's closet yesterday was pretty emotional. But Kelly took a car full of clothes and linens to Goodwill, so many will benefit from Mom's collections of towels, shoes and clothes. There are many, many pictures that I will begin to scan so all of us have some momentoes of her. I have not put her obituary in the papers because they charge big bucks!! So I posted it on Facebook.
http://www.facebook.com/notes/susan-magnuson-channell/my-moms-obituary/10150594427235985
If I sit too long and not write or talk, the tears begin to fall. I lost my mom but also a lifelong cheerleader. She always told me, "you can do it!" whenever I shared what my latest goal was. I want to remember her laughing. She did not do much laughing in her last year of life. I hope she is dancing and laughing and singing in Heaven.
I decided how I will organize her life story. The early years with Mama, teen years with Aunty, Florida years, farm life, traveling and moving. We all probably have stories we can share about those segments of her life. Just in the years since she came to Charlotte, she has moved five times! Hopefully by June, I will have a first draft or at least an outline of a story. I will do my best to capture on paper the essence of someone who was so vibrant and funny and emotional and real but I know I will fall short so be patient with me.
One of the last clear things Mom said to me in the hospital last week was, "I want to go home." I told her I wanted her to come home too. And she shook her head no. It just dawned on me this morning when I woke up that now she is home and that's what she was trying to tell me last week. She really was ready to go.
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